to the one & only disco

    I knew that having you was going to be a learning experience, but I never expected to learn so much about myself because of you. I learned discipline from willingly waking up at 5am every day to play and train with you before I left for work. You showed me that by being determined and never giving up, you could be a fantastic agility dog. You really shined and made me so proud. You were my gardening partner, keeping me company and getting into things you shouldn’t, always reminding me to be patient. I was. You were my therapist at times, listening to me talk about anything and looking at me with approval every once and a while, but when our eyes meet, you wiggle your tail and come give me love. Disco+Mommy quiet time was always my favorite. You were so smart. I was very impressed when I figured out how you manipulated the cat to get what you wanted!
      You also made me aware of my weaknesses and in turn, made me face them. And, just for the record, living in a loft with a puppy is not easy! I learned that in order to help you conquer your fears, I had to conquer my own. For every difficult, painful, disappointing moment, there is a beautiful, exciting, super fun moment right beside. There’s moments where I questioned your sanity. I know now that you had OCD, but I still laugh remembering the countless hours of entertainment on your behalf. Watching your decline was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, however, I learned what it feels like to love something with all my being. Waking up early, staying up late, hours of researching, hundreds of dollars, and almost all my free time… all dedicated to you without a second thought. I wanted you to live the best life you could, despite your special needs.
     There will be future canine homies, but know that you will never be forgotten and your essence will forever be with me. I will be riding my bike down a sunny neighborhood street, basket full of honeydew melon, tennis balls, and a shaaahk, with my comrade by my side, and you to thank for that.

I love you and miss you,
Momma Bear