You are mine

Your voice shakes my core, but suddenly you stop your song out of shyness. The rain gives you a standing ovation and I wait for you in the calm eye long after they have gone. They say Thor is the one who lets you sing, who gives you your voice, but I know that is impossible. You are … Continue reading

lists on lists on lists on lists.

I’m the type of person that always has a list. I am anxious, an over-thinker, a nail-biter, so for me, a list is a tangible way for me to organize my stream of thoughts and make it accessible. It feels good to cross things off the list, especially since these lists are usually made up … Continue reading

So this is the new year…

Whenever the clock strikes midnight and drunken voices start to sing Auld Lang Syne, I think of that Death Cab song and how even though we are given the chance to start over, I don’t feel any different. Sure I might have all of these lofty goals I would like to complete come 2015, but are they really … Continue reading

resolutions.

I’m not one for resolutions. When we back ourselves into a corner with a binary win or lose, succeed or fail, endure or quit then we set ourselves up for unnecessary pressure and unattainable goals. Life is not black or white, no matter how much we’d like it to be. It is an infinite mix … Continue reading

resolving.

2014 is the year I finally kill the word “hipster.” I will put it in a boat filled with Thrasher Magazines, push it softly out to sea, and set it on fire. It will burn then burn out. And its sinking will not fix our vision or help us stay warm in the winter, but … Continue reading

sense of time.

Two thousand and fourteen started with fireworks on a balcony in Stockholm, holding hands with people I met three hours before, and boy – if I could tell you how much love was pounding through our fingertips. New Year’s Eve reminded me that love doesn’t require knowing one another. You can share kindness with new and familiar faces … Continue reading

the anti-resolution revolution.

Oh man. It’s that time of year again. To feel guilty about eating all the Christmas cookies we worked so hard to make. To budget all the bills we carelessly racked up since Thanksgiving. To get the laundry done (all of it) and regular Pinterest-worthy manicures. To try to be the type of person that … Continue reading

abstain/devour.

a new year can be a fresh start or it can be just another day. some people look forward to 1/1 & see it as a chance to start over. other’s feel as though waiting 365 days to start over is silly & that there shouldn’t be a specific date to choose to change. i … Continue reading

if this is love…

I started a project about love over three years ago. It all started because I was alone, angry, but most of all, I was confused. I thought love was supposed to be this wonderful thing, yet instead I felt cheated. First of all, I wasn’t even sure if I had ever been in love and … Continue reading

love letter.

When I’m 4 minutes away from your house, I’m frustrated that I have to wait 4 minutes to see you. I don’t feel whole until the moment I’m with you. But once I am, everything feels different. Time slows down. My brain slows down. Relief and warmth flood over me. I’m not scared of how … Continue reading

keep the dream alive

Hey Monster, We are thousands of miles apart and I usually wake up to texts of you venting about the girls you’re now living with. I wish I could whisk you away to the Russian countryside where we would drink vodka amidst the snow. We would be covered in scarves, bracelets, and eyeliner, all while wearing Cons and … Continue reading

home

A soft caressA warm embrace Legs tangled after a night dawned in laceA new dawnA sunrise greeted by your face The pain is goneI’m home

to the one & only disco

Disco,     I knew that having you was going to be a learning experience, but I never expected to learn so much about myself because of you. I learned discipline from willingly waking up at 5am every day to play and train with you before I left for work. You showed me that by being … Continue reading

mindy kaling- with love

dear mindy, hello, i love you. you save me from my dark thoughts & feelings of sadness. i discovered the mindy show after a pizza-induced hulu fest. it was love at first watch. with each new episode i fell even more in love with you. i think, just maybe, you are my spirit animal. your … Continue reading

love letters.

dear xxxxx, i dream about your hands on my body & the things you would do if i only asked. if only i could spend less time in my mind. we sit, nightly, thigh to thigh & silently i scream “i love you” until my throat burns with the trapped words & my face grows … Continue reading

you don’t need fixing.

hey you, looking this way. yeah, you. i’ve seen so many come and go just like you. you never want advice, and so you seldom ask. you think people who give you advice are typically self righteous and condescending ASSHOLES who think their message is greater than you, or your FRUSTRATION. but you’re too nice; … Continue reading

choice & perspective.

Dear you, Advice is an interesting thing. It may be as worthless as a fleeting cliché or it might be your philosophical key to unimaginable personal success. There’s no way to know beforehand. You only find out if you follow it. That’s where great advice gains its value. Though given for free, it becomes priceless. … Continue reading

“can’t stop, won’t stop”

For over 10 years now I have been through primary care doctors, specialists, and a hospital stay. I’ve gotten into more knock down, hair dragging arguments with my mother than I’d like to admit. I’ve been on numerous medications, most of which the side effects are almost unbearable. In the past 5 years I’ve had … Continue reading

ya done good kid.

I work at a pharmacy and every day I am reminded of how important it is to take care of yourself and be compassionate to others. You never know what the person on the other side of the register has gone through or is experiencing currently. This one customer in particular, let’s call her Nina, … Continue reading

flashes of light.

“our lives are mere flashes of light in an infinitely empty universe. in 12 years of education the most important lesson i have learned is that what we see as “normal” living is truly a travesty of our potential. in a society so governed by superficiality, appearances, and petty economics, dreams are more real than … Continue reading

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